Watching Porn Objectively Stephanie Ortiz takes her minimal experience with pornography and knowledge of the sex industry to discuss why people are attracted to sexual imagery and the “art” of porn, through her viewing, interviews and explorations in the subject matter. Though the wording is not explicit or “not safe for work,” we advise you to read this column at your own discretion. Image: Actor Nathan Fillion and porn star Aria Giovanni in the farcical Spike series, PG Porn (Image Source: Spike)
Do you remember the first time you saw a porno?
In my 25 years, my pornography experience is extremely limited—even with friends, acquaintances and colleagues with varying experience in the sex industry and living in a city ripe with opportunities to dirty one’s mind.
At 17, a friend and I bought another friend a porn DVD as a consolation for his father dying. We picked out something with girls in a locker room adorned on the cover. The friend told us later it sucked and was pretty much girls running around with no shirts on, giggling, in a locker room.
At 22, a drunken “Never Have I Ever” session revealed I never actually saw a porn movie. The two guys I was playing with jumped at the chance to pervert my eyes and immediately went on a nearby computer, into the saved files, and played a favorite.
My blurry memory recalls genitals and breasts and seeing someone’s foreign penis enter an even more foreign vagina (after all, I have only seen my own), and thinking, “Why do people watch this? The guy next to me is cute; I would rather just make out with him and have some fun, as opposed to watching other people wrestle.” Eventually, the cute boy and I kicked the other friend out, turned off the screen, and had our own rendezvous—not sex; just the foreplay—proving that real life action is much better than watching a movie with no plot or character development.
Despite having a healthy, semi-adventurous sex life, it never interested me to watch pornography. While my personal writing slants towards the sexual side, certain article subjects of choice involve varying degrees of sexuality, favorite books and movies tend to display gratuitous sexual scenes, and even taboo art tickles my fancy, pornography continues to lack sense. Furthermore, my peers and others alike who have fascination with this type of erotica baffles me.
So here I am, sexually active for 10 years, with people in my life experienced in varying degrees of sexual deviance, a mixture of dirty innocence... lacking the eye for pornography. Is this common? One can only assume it is at least not uncommon, right?
Recently, a boring weekend led to a decision to watch my first official porn. Being a novice, I typed in “free porn” into the computer, afraid I may contract a computer virus or pull up some bizarre fetish community. I clicked on at what I have come to learn as a run-of-the-mill site which offers a variety of women and men, straight and gay, in couples, threesomes or more. Numerous five-to-30 minute videos appear, displaying how many people watched it and the average rating.
I picked what appeared as the least raunchy, most straightforward, straight couple intercourse. Sitting on my bed, hands folded, I watched two people have sex.
It was odd.
Sure, each person had a nice body, but was I attracted to either? No. Aroused? Nope. Each face contorted in what was supposed to look like pleasure, but really was more an exaggerated lip pout.
All my mind was thinking was how painful it looked. We seriously take part in the vigorous act? Something like that really fits into something like this? Do the released endorphins really make us numb to what looks like an excruciating event?
Wincing in pain, the more close-ups shown the more I (almost) considered forgoing this heinous act all together. And speaking of close-ups, are people really turned on by the camera zooming in on a gaping hole? Why are the two most unattractive parts of a human being shown in such close detail?
Watching the man orgasm also grossed me out, like I was watching a stranger pee. Yes, I have been in the presence of male semen, but just seeing some unknown person climax was strange. Is it even necessary?
In this upcoming series, “Watching Porn Objectively,” I will watch various pornography films and explore the subject, utilizing this analytical, naïve point of view. Hopefully, some of my questions will receive answers while other questions may arise. There will also be opportunities to speak with members of the sex industry on their careers—be it a porn actor/actress, dominatrix or other—and why they chose them, possibly shedding light on why people become aroused by viewing and/or participating in certain acts.


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